You're Doing Great 8-18-2014

I showed up at my PT appointment and they were happy to see me.  They were worried after the two appointments I had with them last week that maybe over the weekend I may have changed my mind and decided I didn't want to come back.  At least that's what Austin said to me when I showed up.  I laughed.  He said I wasn't sure if we beat you up too much or not.  I laughed again and said I want you to beat me up, that's why I'm here or all of this and my trying to get my knee replaced will have been for nothing.  Which is really how I feel.  If I don't put as much work as I can into each appointment and each activity I do on my own then I'm basically not getting my monies worth.  And now that the bills are started to come in, I want this all to be money well spent.  

So at Moore Physical Therapy there are some really nice guys that are working there. They show a lot of dedication and care for all of the patients I have seen them work with.  And that includes me.  I so far have mostly been working with Mark, the owner and Austin one of the PT assistants.  Both super nice guys.  And the other PT James is awesome too.  And although the tech, Bear helps them all out he's real quiet and just does whatever he is told.  So there you have the commercial part of my blog post.  lol. But this way too since I will be going to PT for a while you will know who I am talking about in future PT posts.

So back to my getting beat up....I had another great workout.  At least that's how I felt when I left and what both Mark and Justin said to me throughout my different exercises.  And although I have been told by a few people that I am ahead of where other people at this stage are I did see that today at the office.  There was a guy who had TKR (remember? total knee replacement) about the same time I had had mine done.  And if I had to guess I would say that we were about the same age.  We were both doing the same exercises through the course of our appointments, and actually I think I had a few more then he did.  But I was doing more reps then him, using more weight then him, not using anything for assistance, lifting higher, walking faster and basically kicking his ass.  Part of that could have been for show too.  lol  But really overall I was further ahead then him.  At the end of my appointment when Mark was doing my stretching I asked him when that guy had his surgery and he told me it was around when I had mine so that's how I knew we were on the same timeframe.  Now here's the thing he followed that up with.  You know you are doing great, as best as I've ever seen this early on with a new knee.  And you really can't compare yourself to anyone.  It's not that that guy is behind, but you are doing so well.  Only I was comparing myself to him, cause I don't know how this is suppose to go.  And sometimes when I feel good and then I see that I can kick some ass like I did today I want to do more.  I want to be able to walk farther then 2 miles and not be hurting.  I want to do some squats and leg lifts and not feel like I did get beat up.  It's just crazy.  Because after kicking ass and feeling good I hit this wall.  And this wall hits hard.  My knee hurts, I can't go down stairs, I walk slower.....this wall is where I get the biggest beating.  Damn wall.  And part of it is the fact that I don't want to read the writing on the wall that says...hello 26 days ago you were cut open and your joint was sawed out and we put this chunk of metal in there and then glued you shut.  Now why would I read that?  Haha I know right...because the damn wall keeps getting in the way.  

So for now I'm just going to keep going back to get beat up, I'm gonna work on getting over or around that wall and just keep listening to.....you're doing great!!!!!